Sabrina made a list of qualities in a guy that she’s looking for. After reading it, I realize that we are looking for the same person!! haha… no, I don’t need my guy to have a master’s degree or a PhD. And I also don’t need him to be athletic. Just active and health conscious is good enough for me (but everything else on her list is bang on). For me, the main, main, main, TOP quality of my guy will have to be kindness. He has to be a good hearted person who treats people kindly. Not a fake kind of politeness, but a genuine kindness. And patience. And if he doesn’t get stressed easily that’d be really nice because lord knows how easy it is for me to get stressed. And it’d be nice if he appreciates little moments in life with me… like… when I smile because of something, he’d know what i am smiling about and he’d smile, too because he also appreciates it. Forgiving is also important. That requires him to have a big heart. I don’t like smallness in a man. hahahaha… ok, that came out a bit off… He’ll have to be a good driver and know where we are going and how to get there and how to get me home . This is kind of corny, but I’d like it if he loves animals, kids, and old people. It is important that I learn from him and he learns from me. Being skilled in the kitchen, knowing how to rock a knife, a saute pan is sexy. And speaking of sexy, we’ll have to be sexually compatible. A musician, a writer, a painter… some kind of an artist. Preferably musician. Independence. I don’t want to be his everything. Honesty. This one is extremely important to me. I dislike dishonesty in any form. Lying to self, to others is extremely unattractive. Humor. I like my man funny and he’ll have to find me funny, too, because i think i am… Openness is important to me, too. I like to stay connected heart to heart… Physically, it’s hard to say…I have been attracted to many different shapes and colors… but i think i’d like someone tall, someone who makes me feel small when i stand next to him. This is all i could think of right now, well, and of course, he’ll have to adore me and think himself out of this world lucky to be with me, because if not, he’d be delusional and i can’t be with a crazy person

i couldn’t fall asleep so i went on msn… and i told eli i couldn’t sleep and he said, it’s nothing you can’t fix with a glass of wine and i said, good idea! thanks eli! and i drank. by myself. now i am tipsy and happy . and i just want to say that i think he is a great kisser. not eli. I’ve never kissed eli before, but i am sure eli is a great kisser. i don’t want to talk about him much here just in case he reads it and then he talks about it with me and i blush. but i am going to say this, he’s a great kisser. 

jeff will be back on the 15th, i can’t wait. that asshole has been gone for way too long. he said he is bringing chinese  vegetarian wedding cakes back for me, so sweet I miss him so much… he said he had to give a five minute speech for his sister’s wedding… i am going to make him give a speech for my wedding, too… haha… it’ll be like, “um… i first met amy when she was getting trained on dish and i told her to scrub the pots!” It’s so funny thinking back, back when we were strangers and now he’s a brother to me. Phil introduced us, he said, “this is jeff. he’s started a week before you and he’s already rocking dish.” or something of the kind. Wait, i think there was another kid there who was hitting on me… irrelevant. the point is. jeff n i met in the dish pit and now we are family~ he has seen me through many ups and downs… in fact! i believe jeff is one of the very very few people who has seen me yell and scream! i was having an hour long fight with sabrina on the phone while jeff was driving, hahaha…. sabrina and i don’t fight anymore, but jeff is forever scared of me, which makes him my bitch~ well no… well…. yea he is. 

I am just kidding. I love jeff. Because sabrina’s not here, jeff is the first or second person i’d call in a crisis. I remember being completely traumatized over a R related incident. I called jess, but she didn’t pick up, then I called jeff and we went to stanley park. and he gave me all kinds of old man, super wise advice and consolation. then he said he was hungry so we went to have pho… and i was in my pj’s because i didn’t think to change when traumatized. but enough of him. 

you know, i really don’t like capitalizing words. 

what i really, really like, is the bulk food section in save on foods. I love nuts, all kinds of nuts! my favorite used to be brazil nuts but not anymore. Now i am a frequent eater of almonds, pecans, walnuts and cashews. I also love dried fruits. I used to eat a lot of dried apricots and dates but lately it is all about the dried blueberries and cherries. 

i wonder how much longer i am going to stay tipsy. I should try to go to sleep. 

i just want to say one last thing. I love sabrina, and I love anthony, and I love my dad. And I love a lot of other people, too, but the three of them. They are the best. Oh, and I want to say that sabrina does a mean robot dance that no one else in the world has the privilege to witness but me! I was so amazed by her skills, then she pointed at me and said, THIS is where my self esteem is founded on. awww…

ok, i am going to try to go to bed.